Essential listening, reading & understanding.
Search www.youtube.com find and play "Abraham Maslow and the Psychology of Self-Actualization" It is the best recommendation that I have discovered for you to fulfil your creative and innovative self. Apart from that I can also recommend: "The wisdom of no escape" by Puma Chodron, Carl Jung's works and the philosophy of Noam Chomsky. As Albert Einstein remarked"Imagination is more powerful than intelligence and if you want to understand a problem look at nature for the solution." I paraphrase his more eloquent aphorisms. Our purpose is to 'know ourselves' as Socrates wrote. We need to accept the truth of ourselves with the negatives and positives. Essentially we need to love ourselves as we are.